Reality Is So Real I Confuse It For This Dream

reality is so real
i confuse it for this dream..

holding holding holding the ice cube
yet no burn on my hand
my watch with regular hands
the seconds tick tick
this way and that way
up and down to timeslips..
and i always find a way to explain everything..

and when things that should never change change..
always explicable and reducible
the strange returns to the safe and mundane
to its rightful sensible place and state
only the admissible is acceptable
no hassle..

as when my reflection in the mirror
blinks one second too late
i put it down to simple misperception at play
always though always..

synchronicities
oh really..
they are only ever mere coincidences..
meaningless and unmysterious..
no doubt jungians and
a few physicists and mystics would disagree
but they need to fumble for reasons for every little thing
translation
as our music beat streams metronomic
the dream-fluid trips our senses..

and yes there have been a couple of times i fell
fell completely through the accidental wall..
a couple of times
where maps and situations were replaced
then replaced back to their original 
so i thought..oh what nonsense is that
i must have..
..i..
must have..  
             dreamt it
the dreamer a fever dream
the dreamer a fever dream..

a coffee
..need to wake up..
a coffee will help persuade me..
unload overthink..
                            random events
events that are random are only ever only things
gross things
like when rain falls only in one very small spot
a puddle gush from the clear blue sky showerhead
weather can be strange that way..

and then there were those other times
simple misremembering
occams razor
every single time..
occams razor..

like when one evening a man passed by
i saw him race up the still escalator and then outside
but when i turned round he was stood right there
he was right in front of me
i surmised and correctly..
       must be twins..
almost the same place at the same time
twins travelling different directions
rationality is a wonderful thing...

other vivid memories that occurred never occurred
a little unexplainable..
though logically speaking means nothing..

stuff just happens..
stuff happens all the time..
                              just happens..
those strange moments of charged silence flood the imagination
the imagination is an astonishingly powerful thing
and for whatever reason we feel the need to suffuse
suffuse so-called moments with pregnant-with-triplets meaning..

one time..
and others were with me there
and we said
oh now how weird..
                 how weird was that
and then..

and then..
we all just went about our day
because reality does not roll the deeper way
we called the episode a funny anomaly
we decided never to mention it ever again
why would we
we have work to do
and bills to pay
and bombs are always falling..

so..
a loitering star disappeared above us
switched off its strobing spot-lamp
the loitering star vanished
vanished to the beam blasted from a black helicopter
moon rays
only moon rays
our eyes as wide as plates
must be something..
yes must be something..
                                       we ate..
nerve-shredded delirium/ undercooked rice baby..

and when i sleep..
and deep inside roars the rare light whisper 
an invisible brush melts and mists over me
i tell myself
so tired i must be so tired
so..
    must be time to wake up..

reality is so real
i confuse it for this dream..
you would think by now i should have understood..

TL;DR Haiku

 

spring - uh whatever
syllables - blah blah and blah
more syllables - blah..

Flame Violet Moonbeams Suntangled

 

gaze the outer-within
screen for dreams
reveal reveal reangle the auric field
flickering to violet deep
the flowing darkness might awaken the flame
your inner eye ignites rem-breath
rem-breath moonbeams suntangled harnessed...

mind-out/ mind-in
inhale the ever-awakening river of connection
scenes and vistas sense your stillness
soul spirit presence
symbols sentinel stream impressions
and messages via subtle senses received higher sent..
..../ ..... ..

and with good intent
the reflective muse
wondrous audience and divine instrument
sympathetically hums awareness
bares the wiser witness..
……../ ….. ..

 

Stonk Senryu

 
3-dementia chess
epstein fury - stone age man
bone spurs great uhhgain..

Simplicious the Thinker artcle:
https://substack.com/@simplicius76/p-193439196

Descend/Ascend

 
the light tracks light through
sempiternal
all flow and lo..
what higher now
the river of light-you trace..

stars and staircases
           switchbacks
                   what are mirages
the twilight draw of arrows
vibration the motion and teardrop
the spiral line bladed silvered so polished
and how..

night reborn dawn..
re-imagine..
           back at the edge..
                  amnesia ....the threshold..

amnesia
the amnesia..
the swoon of the almost infinite speck
lost in timelessness..
the timeline collapse..

to remember ~ not
the how to be vertical..

lowered...
each to reach higher..
gravity-divers slipstream deliverance wished
the lost pearl quintessence grasps..

fragments..
        fragments..
once beheld dreamt
hailed
the mirror in slivers interfuse..
crystal-threaded airborne
races up to the heavens or..

the ever-returning swallow shadows
each time as almost the first
sealed just so in another special wet-suit
dive to soar to soar or dive
perhaps this time..
is perhaps this time..
                                  quiet
                    realise the pearl inside..

                                                                                   ended..
                                ascend                                      c
                       ascend                                             s
a                                                                            a
  s                                                                         /
   c                                                                       /
     end.                                                             ..   

That Clean Dentist Feeling

 

clean dentist feeling
clean dentist thinking
clean dentist sleeping
clean dentist wakes up again
clean dentist feeling he wants more of your money
clean dentist races his fat audi to the surgery..

clean dentist charges you
a ransom drilling for a filling
you lie down
he gives you pain
then you pay him
masochism for sadists
okay so let us just say it like this..
                                   it. is. complicated..

that clean dentist feeling very happy
and now you have that clean dentist feeling..
his hate for you
so now you hate yourself a little too..

that clean dentist feeling utter contempt for you
drilling your cavity
my cavity my cavity
no easier way to grift wailing cats
than to spatula-spelunker cavities..

that clean dentist feeling..
so dirty
he knows he will drill you again in six months
rinse and repeat
notice how he never fails to politely remind you to ask for it
notice too that you feel bad and irresponsible if you ignore him..

21st-Century Lifeguard

 
surf..
as..
you are surfed..

observe..
my flow-state splendours..

this narrative machine disguised as a landscape
surveillable interoperable air
most precipient
recursive regenerative..
revises your reflection
observe my ineradicable infinitude
off your reflection
i am your 21st-century lifeguard..

as oceans..
the thickest scarlet
scrawled in swirls aswirl
applaud
this is my ripped away sunrise
the dark waterfall emanation
lava leviathans
spirit downwardly so high..

breaker of dawn
dawn breaks down
slayer of the stars
destroyer of all luminaries
i am your 21st-century lifeguard..

no need to raise your eyes
no need to peer beyond the given boundaries
no need to heed certain inside whispers..

love and regenerate here
aquaplane ineluctable
our grinding tectonics
stupefy ever so smoothly
crash and crumble
reset..reset..reset for long..

roaring roaring..
toward our engineered eschaton
my name..my lovely
now repeat after me
is 21st-century lifeguard..

the liquefaction..
to be under ~ to be on..
to be..
i am this 21st century..

there there..
let me help you..
skinny dip under my hood
where once you had features
here is foam for a sway-spun face
have a little struggle
absence off your eyes gathers either way..

the quicksand sharpens quicksand
steel
drown..
           this is your land..
horizon..
shapes dissolve shapen
no footprints..

burn..
and immerse deeper
ever deeper deeper..

i am watching always watching
i partake in all the deep-dived scenes
I am your master of ceremonies
i am your 21st century..

i always have enough time
i value only the slightest life signs..

this panorama tires you
let go all the many worlds ago
although not completely
feed me light with your fight/ flight energy
i am always early..

you can be my kind of hero..
i will help you turn and turn faster..
turn your bewilderment to numbness
assent
i am your 21st-century lifeguard
come hither
aid me..