Your Secret Admirer

 

hey
good evening
may i introduce myself
i am your secret admirer
my amorous armour present
and by your sublime impression
i am indelibly disarmed sheer
attired wide-eyed i remain
delightedly inchoate
what silent fortune
stoic as a lightening-struck pylon
with the equilibrium of a stoned submariner walking a
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       and all while balancing himself with a pendulum
          cradled on down-turned palms
               and it works for me..

so why am i your secret admirer
in essence
your irreducible essence
vivid serene
your ascended presence
your numinous nowness
as graceful as the ever-flowing stream..

and although i usually mistrust the mystical
as nothing but lyricists fanciful
        frothing fantastical..
           and yet..
like an oh so subtle
so subtle field of light
your aura rare vibrates
and i am brushed
palpably brushed
pleasantly shocked..

this usually humdrum nitrogen-mix
now bumbles alchemical ripples
projects your softest skin scent
imagined on me painterly
de nuit da da
the afterglow strangely bathes me
with a certain ineluctable-afar..

pleasantly shocked
and shocked pleasantly to boot
to smithereens shook
delightfully discombobulated
mysteriously slam-dunked
you defibrillated my subtle centres higher
so i became your secret admirer
an advanced yogi of the unrequited
a shaman wildly dancing
wildly dancing at the banquet
the cocooned banquet
celebrating the reachable unattainable one..

amour de limerence has me in bits
pummelled
by the unforgiving steely fists of cupid
and as i man this in-between station
and as you have no doubt by now deduced
i am not prone to exaggeration
not even one bit..

a scarecrow pressing your field of flowers
i even wear sensible trousers
especially for court appearances/
severe job interviews
otherwise known as dates
i serenade the blue moon
clutching my holstered lasso
see how effortlessly i catch my coat
as the fatefully wooed wins her internal debate
and takes an emptive strike-out
otherwise known as..
another get-a-clue bathroom break..

the distance
your most mysterious touch
distance..
wrung rag-empowered
i remain your secret admirer
so from this pristine vantage point
the basement balcony glory of this crystal tower
i gaze at a reified panorama
 a gloam-lucent verge as diorama.

and in all the ways
in only all the ways i will ever imagine
i will never let you down
and should i glimpse through my glimmering..
..i melt a burning freezer full of fire extinguishers
as my yearning ambulance chases itself
ever-decreasing circles ambushed
marginalising further
the mangling mixed metaphor lounge lizard i have become..

gazing at my votive three-day shadow mirror
the ghost-in-smoke enquirer
my unuttered breath so dulcetly delivered
do you perchance hear your astral whisperer
     whisper..
         hey
    good evening
       may i introduce myself
   i am your secret admirer..

i bet you can almost hear me..