for a few minutes let us meditate upon a timelessness once upon
you ~ before being
unborn etheric perhaps anciently timed-out
presupposing pre-existence..
infinity atemporal
paradoxically luminous yet without light
floating inside-out non-space
to bubble-soak in the deepest extreme gradients
the enchanted canopy of no sound no colour no taste..
vivified ~ a vial of refreshed sand grains
the timer outside-in
encasing the rhythmic thrum ~ a pointillistic nothing
the quark of you blinded into sight
blending falling within all your rivers shimmering onyx
as the curtains tipping down raise you up to a new engulfing vastness..
slipping away ~
your pin-drop sonic boom awakening
the awareness shifts
the distant memory-set pier unmoored disappears
an inkling of you-dimensionality alien-familiar
the new threshold inking-in the limpid
the selfless altruism stoking
the grand new goal granted
the embryonic totality all-knowing
so restive
the-i now entering the stadium ~ a self..
to enter this universe
to be enveloped in ether
perchance this outermost galaxy curving you to this strange planet for birth
the species the-i would soon integrate into carved
the descension ascension
all carefully selected and yet certain granules in the fire forge sparks into spears
and so pierce the awareness so driven..
swarming glittering starlings all
spiralling and spiralling
future murderers and victims and saints
and all the mundane in-betweens
self-selected and sovereign
entwined separating
all ecstatic points of reason
the flowing canvas constellations trace murmurations racing and passing
this spiral arm that spiral arm
options and purposes
a given free will unbound..
so portrait frames formed before form
keeping score the blown leaves crystalise
kiss their blossomed night ringing out
rain down-washing the baptising lightening strikes
melted time reforming ~ lluminates landscape..
so after the i-am selection
from quadrillions to the infinite power
and for a moment ponder on that
out the birth canal swims this cosmogryal nascence fixing..
the miracle screaming or subdued dead and blue
the melted candle quickened
a quick knock-out one-two
vanishing before the hello-and-farewell..
time-looping ~
perhaps after another
elusive time dying before dying
the sex and skin colour and genetic heritage too
also the place of your birth
parentage and descendants also
the is bearing the gift ~ free will supreme..
and down..
immersing in the who and what to be and what to love and what to hate
immersing in the who and what to value and what and whether to believe
preconceiving all the expectations
picking the numbers ideal
the numbers roll for the eternal wheel for finity
what goes against the grain..
to be a protoplasm
or to be a being
delineated happenstance a fated fading-in sculpture
here the scheme dances
and what writhes around everyone wrapping through every place interlacing
flowing and shaping across the whole design arc woven
imagination hinterlands
explore the mystery of consciousness
free will questions margins ~ mirages ~ maya..
how about your nature and innate drives
the sociology
all aspects of your divine predestination the nature of your arrival
the journey and the curses and the loss
you wondering what in you chose all of this
this very spirit and body and soul
this consciousness
locked and loading
pre-loading fired..
to be a physical being
and i chose to slip on this
unremembering my i-conception when of then..
yes/no to congenital disabilities
should this i inherit any hereditary diseases
from a menu pick
my levels of sanity/insanity
all discretionary
that is true free will
how ever destiny seems..
chosen ~ should i have enough food to eat
should i die almost instantly
how safe and loving the environment would be ~ chosen
so too the demons and angels and absentees
and how the-i might be affected
how the damage might manifest
and what would be its harvest
~ free will rolling..
my upbringing
the language that would profoundly shape my reality slot
my class/caste/clan/creed/culture and integration
my tastes
my unconscious drives
the triggers and clicks
tick here here and here - free will..
chosen ~ invader or invaded
chosen ~ to be or not to be your king
chosen ~ to be miscarried or terminated
the tough love enfolds us with such free will choices
the bleeding unspool all golden..
to be loved or spurned
to be abused or protected
to be the lucky one or utterly rejected ~ free will
unforeseen consequences cosmic and karmic ~ chose it all..
and yet how the fleeting glimpses ache..
were you an abused baby
it was free will
it was karma
and consequently should you then end up with a needle in your
arm
those tracks are your selected station
the spirit so traumatised smashed to bits
no grace under pressure ~ perhaps in your soul contract ~ the journey station and station
you have the free will not to believe in free will or karma
~ the sauce of source..
to be able to defy
gravity
to be able to fly
gentle war widow you are immortal..
the levels of injustice and privilege chosen
the hurt the desolation the elevation
the love and the joy and how to feel and incorporate it all
and that is true free will
detach enlightened grateful..
