hyper vigilant
racing adrenalline freezes and folds
utterly exhausting..
numbed
self preservation
safe within the isolating climate..
dilated eyes
cortisol
tremors..no restful sleep..
a world of hurt with its many burning moons
memory gaps and flashes
distorted timeline..from far away back when..
nightmares live the dream
regenerate reincarnate
recapitulate and overlay all the action replays..
the medications
boil to a simmer
the strain lessens..for a while..
then back with a bang the silent shame choir
the secrets kept
the kindness of the blanketed slashed canvas..
her final act
also one of self preservation
the last way..
it was then to the earthly judges
for their post-match proclamations
holding forth under the glinting glorious sunshine shade..
